Bradenton, Florida, United States
Sometimes when Im Alone I Cry
Sometimes when im alone I cry...I cry from the pain I keep locked up inside... hiding it away from the friendly faces only to reveal hatred and sorrow. People I once thought I could trust turn away in my time of need...leaving me alone to wallow in my pain,not waiting or wanting to help..not caring about the sadness in my soul or the feelings of being cold towards the world. I try not to show my sadness to those that are nearest to me, I try to hide it behind my even now slowly fading smiles and laughter,for fear of them turnining me away for not understanding.I feel like an outcast watching in...seeing happiness that I can not reach... feeling the cold stares or hearing the whispering words of my enemies only sickens me. I pray to my lord and saver to give me guidiance and to let me live on another day...when night falls Im in total silence... isolating myself from everyone I kno and love to think...I think about ways to help others in their time of dispair... I think about where my life will go and what might happen next...I think up ways to get past my pain that I have burryed deep within my soul...I think...hoping that my prayers will get answered and my sadness to be gone...but until that day comes...I shall sit in darkness and cry...cuz when im alone I cry, I cry from the pain I keep locked up inside hoping it never to be revealed to the unsuspecting wittnesses...releasing it while im alone...for now it shall not be known until i am alone....for that is the time when I cry....